Becoming Jessica: 2011

DID I ASK YOU TO SPEAK?

I got this one from unknowndesires-

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When you're watching your FAVORITE tv show and someone walks in and says: "Oh, I hate that show."

shutyourface09:

Why are you alive?

I got this one from myheartbelongstodamon

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What would I do if I see my idol on the street?

xbitemeslowlyyx:

First reaction:

Second reaction:

So I would raise the floor and run up it like this:

And hug him like this:

And finally when nobody would be looking:

I got this from miss-mystic-falls

Monday, June 13, 2011

June 13, 2011

"Stephan" might be getting a job today. "Daisy" hooked him up for ABM and he went to today to fill out papers and the job is his.
Here's hoping.

It wasn't easy for him and it looked for a second that it wasn't going to happened.
"Edgar" was supposed to send money into his bank account, but it wasn't going through, so he went to the bank to talk to them and if they give him money, he will head over there.
That was at 8am and it's now 4:43 pm.
It's pretty much a given that he got the money and went there and hopeful got the job.
He's also supposed to go to "Alex's" job to get some money for a week for transportation purposes.
I hope he made it in time to get it.

Crossing fingers x

June 11, 2011

I got an email from Tumblr that a site I follow and post their news into my vampire blogs accused me of violating their copyrights rules and demanded I delete the posts or lose my Tumblr blog.
So I did.
What I don't understand is I left the link to the site so everyone would know that I take no credit for it and I still get label.
I've been posting their news to my blogs since almost 2 years and no bitching until now.
I have feeling someone bitched about me to the site and that's how it happened.

So fuck them and their bloated egos.
I will not nor ever post any news from http://www.vampire-diaries.net/ to my blogs.

June 11, 2011

5am

A woman and man were outside arguing. She was screaming, cursing, and hitting him. The guy was trying to calm her down because she was too loud and she refused to listen.
They went in and continued yelling the entire time to their apartment.

June 10, 2011

Tonight, a cop knocked on the door. "Stephan" answered it and the cop asked him some questions about a burglary that happened upstairs in one of the apartments last night.
"Stephan" said no, he didn't hear anything.
Then the cop asked his name and then asked about my window's bug fence thing, you know those screen things you put on the window so you opened it and no insects get in.
Anyway, there's a huge rip on it and he wanted to know if it was there before we moved or after.
He said before and the cop left.
Now, we have to worry about us getting robbed one day.

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

June 7, 2011

On Sunday, "Alex" , "Rachel", and Lil "Ron" came to visit.
Dad, of course, bitch about living here and when he showed "Alex" the new lease, we found out the landlord put the wrong date to the day and month we moved here, which gives us at least 3 months to move out and live back in New York.

Yay!

Crossing fingers x

June 7, 2011

I'm a big fan of One Life To Live and now that it's been cancelled. I'm going to miss it so much!
I saw the preview for this week new episodes and I'm worried.
In the spoiler I read, the site mention someone (a character) is going to die.
My three guesses are:

- Matthew

- Clint

- Gigi

I'm crossing my fingers and hoping it's not Gigi.
In the preview, it mentions she has a deadly attack by Jack.
If she dies, I'm going to be super pissed.

Monday, June 06, 2011

June 5, 2011

What the fuck has happened to the MTV Movie Awards.
It was like possessed with graphic sex.
Justin Timberlake grabbing Mila Kunis boobs and she grabs his crotch.
Then when the screen was announcing all the the actors nominated for Best Kiss, freaking swan kissing the female swan on her (dare I say it) privates.
Robert Pattinson saying to Reese Witherspoon.

"I didn't cut you, but I fucked you"

WTF!

I missed the rest because "Stephan" and dad wanted to see the Mets game, but I can imagine it got worse from there.

Anyway, on a lighter note, I'm happy Twilight won and I'm sorry Harry Potter didn't.
I'm a fan of both.

June 5, 2011

1:00 am

A drunk woman was outside the apartment building, cursing and ringing my doorbell to let her in.
Since I live in the first floor and my room is near the front door, she had the nerve to knock on my window because I was ignoring her.
My dad let her in and her friend that was with her apologized for the problem.

Sunday, June 05, 2011

June 4, 2011

Another interesting dream. It was about a Spanish woman who was a vampire hunter who lived in a British town.
She had raven straight long black hair and tan skin.
She gets kidnapped by the vampire king of the entire UK Country because he wanted to make a experiment on her.
To succeed in creating a hybrid. Half-vampire and half-werewolf. He first gets her bitten by a werewolf and then he bites her and she blacks out from the pain.
When she awakens, she's a hybrid.
The vampire king has long black hair, blue eyes and has a British accent and so does the vampire hunter I might add.
She is hold up by one vampire and the other a werewolf.
He explains that she's no longer a human but a hybrid.
He wanted to see if it would work on her before he tried it himself.
When it succeeded on her, he did the same to himself and he too is a hybrid.
He said that we wanted to become more powerful and rule the world.
Then he tells the men to lock her up in the dungeons. He wants to talk to the council that is half vampires and the other half are werewolves. The vampires and werewolves have a treaty to be in peace between each other and the vampire king wants to change that where the council and everyone else will obey him.
In the meantime, the vampire hunter is able to escape the dungeon by a friend who's a werewolf and a spy for her. He takes her to a secret room where she can see the vampire king and the council speaking in another room beneath her.
She watches with the werewolf and sees the vampire king turn into a giant half-vampire and half-wolf.
The council attacks him and he kills them all.
The vampire king looks up and sees the vampire hunter and her spy friend and flies up to attack them.
The vampire hunter grabs a long candle holder and repeatedly pokes the giant creatures in the eyes.
When she hurts him, she runs and escapes the mansion to the backyard. She sits down to rest for a bit and thinks.
In her mind, she says:

"I'm a vampire hunter and I use to be human. Not anymore. Now I'm one of them, the creatures I hunt and I have to live with it, but with this curse, I can fight back even more powerful.
I'm going to miss being human, I was so proud of being human and now I have to live with this".

Then she jumps to the top of a stone gate and looks back at the mansion and then does a flip over the wall and runs faster than she ever had to her home.

FYI, She was captured in the woods, where she was hunting some creature.

That's all I remember of the dream.

(This is exactly how the vampire king looked like in my dream)

June 3, 2011

Funny, people seem to think that because Rihanna went through hell and was abused by a monster, she's suppose to be perky and happy. All WOO-HOO!!!
Abuse victims have their own different ways in dealing with it. Most don't.
Give her a fucking break and leave her the fuck alone.
Insensitive pricks.

I support the video completely. Besides, be honest, how many of you think rapists deserve to die, especially if they rape children.

http://youtu.be/sEhy-RXkNo0 - The Man Down Video

June 3, 2011

I'm homesick.
I miss New York.
I miss Brooklyn and Queens.
I got to get a job so I can move back to where I belong.

I miss Shea everyday.
I feel alone.

June 1, 2011

Our dad is going to get us kick out.
He wants to have the rent lowered.
So he wants the landlord to come over and bitch about it and the fact that the building is filthy.
We have ants, roaches, a mouse, and bedbugs.
The super does not clean or do anything.
The hallways always smell like vomit and there's always pee on the floor.

May 25, 2011

Dad got his pension and we went to the laundry room to wash and dry our clothes.
"Stephan" didn't lock the door to the washer completely and water was everywhere.
Funny thing, I also didn't lock the door completely and nothing happened.

Monday, May 23, 2011

May 21, 2011

Well, it's 6pm and the world didn't end.
All is well and good.
The guy that predicted the so-called end of the world should run and hide because the idiots that bought the nonsense and quit their jobs and gave up their homes will be going after him.

"It's the end of the world as we know it and I feel fine".

May 10, 2011

Well, once again nothing has changed.
My dad is broke and blaming my brother and I instead of his addiction.
My brother wants to look for jobs in NYC, but my dad refuses to pay for metrocards and bus fare.
He wants us to get jobs here in Jersey (Union City) so he doesn't have to pay.
The problem is in the end of the year, we might be moving back to NY and "Stephan" and I will have to travel back and forth instead of having an job over there which would make things so much easier for us.
"Stephan" always gets job interviews almost everyday and can't go since dad is broke or cares more about saving his money to piss it all away in his precious lottery.

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day Mom!

I love you and miss you so much.

http://www.yahoo.americangreetings.com/ecards/view.pd?i=342736920&m=7536&rr=y&source=yahoo999&c=emyah63460

Sunday, May 01, 2011

May 1, 2011

Today was "Lil Ron's" Holy Communion.
He look like an GQ model in his suit.
It was an good service.
After, we went to their home, ate Chinese food and watch the movie "Up".
Than we had cake and "Alex" drove us home.

April 30, 2011

Feels so weird not having her here, at this time(10am) I always feed her and I had a moment when I forgot and was going to feed her.

I miss her deeply.

April 29, 2011

I have to stay strong for Shea.
I can't afford to lose it because I have an history of depression.
I've had suicidal thoughts when my mom died and I don't want to go back there.

"Stephan" in the other hand is losing it.
He's so sick to his stomach, his blood pressure and cholesterol is up because of watching Shea go through seizures, pain, starving, and losing any control of her bladder.

We took her to an animal shelter in Manhattan to put her to sleep.
We couldn't stay to see them put her down, but I did get to say my goodbyes.
My regret is that she had to die with a bunch of strangers around her instead of her family.
She should be looking at us when her life is over, not them.
I hate myself, my dad and brother "Alex" for not giving us enough money to have her cremated so I could keep her.
Pa paid for the procedure to put her to sleep and "Alex" paid nothing.

I lost my one and only best friend, Shea saved my life and I couldn't even let her die with her family by her side.
I hate everyone and everything.
I will never forgive myself for it, but I'm glad she won't suffer anymore.

I've asked "Alex" by email on Facebook to respect my wishes and to not talk about her on Sunday, May 1ft because "Lil Ron" is having his first communion and I don't want to ruin it by losing it in front of him.

April 29, 2011

So much for taking her, the costs for the clinics are too high and the shelters nearby don't put animals to sleep.
Over $100 bucks, my brother and I are so pissed to see her suffer and my dad won't pay unless it's around $30 dollars.
My brother "Alex", I don't know if he would.
So Shea's going to suffer needlessly because no one because we're broke.
FUCKING BULLSHIT!

April 29, 2011

2:00 am

I'm lying in my bed watching my cat Shea suffer to her death.
I just saw the most scary and disturbing image I have never seen and will never forget.
Shea had an seizure.
It was horrifying.
I'm sick to my stomach to see it.
She started to cry in pain and I stroke her head to bring some comfort to her.
She quieted down.
I'm taking her to a clinic or shelter to put her to sleep.
I cannot watch her suffer anymore.

I loved you so much Shea.
You have save my life and brought happiness with always making me laugh.
Your my best and only friend.
I will forever miss you.

Now I lay Shea down to sleep,
I pray the lord her soul to keep
If she should die before she wakes
I pray the lord her soul to take.

GOODBYE SHEA

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

April 27, 2011

I took Shea to the vet and the doctor told me that she has tumors and he can't save her, he was going to give me meds to make her death painless, but I couldn't afford it, the nurse gave me an bitchy attitude because of it and everyone was staring at me when I left.
My heart is broken, my depression is coming back and I feel hollow and so full of pain.
I FUCKING HATE THIS!!!

I want to cremate her and keep the ashes, but I don't have the money to have it done when she dies.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

I'm selling

I am selling two books and a pair of Nine West shoes.
The books are Space Odyssey 2010 and Space Odyssey 2061 by Arthur C. Clarke.
The shoes are Nine West Black leather high heel shoes - 8.25 size.
All are in good condition.
Books - No torn pages, no writing on pages.
Shoes - Have never been worn since it doesn't fit me.
The prices are:

Space Odyssey 2010 - $15.00

Space Odyssey 2061 - $15.00

Nine West High Heels - $25.00

You must pay the shipping price and there are no returns.
I accept money order or checks only!

Contact me at: Jalamo83@yahoo.com

Write in subject line what you want to buy!

Monday, April 18, 2011

Saving Shea

In the bottom of this blog, there is a link to my store, a site I created to sell my things to afford taking my cat to the vet.
Click on Shea's pic and it will take you there.

April 17, 2011

Happy Birthday to my big bro "Stephan".
He turns 36 today.
Last night, he went clubbing with "Edgar" and "Daisy", came home tonight and had cake with our brother "Alex", sister-in-law "Rachel" , Lil "Ron", and Pa.
He got a card with a $20 in it from them.
Too bad we're starving, since we're broke (surprise, surprise) and "Stephan's" going to have to spend his $20 on food tomorrow.

Friday, April 01, 2011

April 1, 2011

I think there's something wrong with my cat Shea. Ever since our eviction adventure and force to live in my brother's basement.
Since Shea had to stay in the basement for the three months we live there, I never noticed she was getting skinner.
When the day came for us to move out, we notice the change. She's so skinny, you can see and feel her spine and ribs. That's never happened before.
She was eating, so I don't think she was starving herself.
I think she's sick.
She sleeps more than she ever did, she hasn't gain more weight. Even her purring sounds weird, she whistles in her purrs.
When we lived in Middle Village, she was livey and playful.
She would run around the place like a lunatic. We raised her with the freedom to run and explore wherever she wanted and being forced to stay in a crowded basement, I think depressed her.
She's not the same.
She's so sad looking, I'm scared that by the time "Stephan" or I get jobs to afford to take her to the vet, whatever that is wrong will kill her.

I think maybe the reason she's like this is maybe she's homesick or she has a tapeworm.

Can someone help me?

Thursday, March 31, 2011

March 30, 2011

Ain't that some shit!
"Stephan" was downloading pics and all these viruses pop up.
My side is not infected.
Then later tonight, a cop car showed up at our apartment for whatever the reason.

I love this image

Free Myspace Graphics

One Moment...Too Gush Over My Favorite Band Ever!!!

I love this band and all their albums.
I think they are by far the greatest band I have ever heard.
Their songs fit perfectly for the way I feel and how my life is.
The name of the band is : Apocalyptica

If you look at the bottom of this blog, you will see one of their videos, check it out!

or check out the band in their site: www.apocalyptica.com

My Resume for anyone willing to interview me for an job position or hire me.

Email me if your interested in hiring me.

Jalamo83@yahoo.com

Objective: To obtain a position utilizing my skills and experience to benefit my employer and grow with the company.

Profile:

Highly reliable, determined and consistent individual.

Willing and able to take on additional responsibilities.

Computer proficient in Microsoft Word and Internet Navigation.

Knowledge in general office procedure such as typing (30 wpm) and filing.

Experience:

Self-Employed

Childcare Provider Queens, NY

2004 – 2006

• Attended to children in a private home.

• Observed and monitored play activities, and entertained children by reading and playing games with them.

• Prepared and served meals and baby formulas.

• Assisted children in dressing and bathing.

• Accompanied children on walks and other outings.

• Washed and ironed clothing.

• Kept children’s quarters clean and tidy.

• Escorted children to school or daycare.

• Engaged children in extra-curricula activities such as homework.

Education:

Flushing High School, Flushing, NY

Academic Studies

Monday, March 28, 2011

My Vampire Site

SHAMELESS PLUG!!!

I created an vampire site because I am an huge fan of all things vampires, check it out and see what you think:

March 28, 2011

My father has been sneaking smokes from his cigs in the apartment that does not allow smoking.
I caught him in the bathroom, I found cig ashes on the sink and "Stephan" caught him in the living room with the window opened.
The second day since we moved to Jersey, I was cooking and the smoke alarms went off. It wasn't the food, since it didn't burn, so I thought my father was smoking in the bathroom, "Stephan" didn't think so. He was wrong.

March 26, 2011

Today was my 28th birthday.
I got a computer that use to belong to my brother "Alex", a make-up kit, and a journal.
It was a good day.
I spend it with my brothers, father, sister-in-law, and my nephew.

March 19, 2011

Well, we did it!
We moved all our stuff in our stuff in our apartment in New Jersey.
So weird living here, since I've been a New Yorker all my life.
"Lil Ron" was so upset about us leaving, he was in tears.
It broke my heart to see his sweet face hurting.

Friday, March 18, 2011

March 19, 2011

I know I'm getting ahead of myself since it's not the 19th yet, but since we will be moving at that day, I might not be able to update this blog until I find a library near Union City(Which is were I will be living in), New Jersey.
I hope they have free Internet access or I'm screwed for my emails, job search, my sites, and my blogs.

Oh Boy!

Wish me luck in Jersey, I'm going to need it ;)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

March 16, 2011

I heard a funny story today. One day, my brother "Alex" was walking in the attic and all of the sudden one of his legs fell through the floor.
"Rachel" and "Lil Ron" look up to see a leg through their ceiling.
They took a picture of it.
You can see the patched up work on the ceiling.

March 16, 2011

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my sister-in-law "Rachel". Wishing you happiness and love in your special day!

You are a Sister-In-Law

That truly shines

Bright as a star

In the darkest of times

Knowing you're my Sister-In-Law

Makes me so proud

You would stand out

In any crowd

You my dear Sister-In-Law

I truly love

Picked specially for me

By the Lord above

I LOVE YOU

Click here to see card : http://www.things-to-say.com/Christian/star-sisterinlaw-bd.htm

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

March 15, 2011

WOO-HOO!!! THE NEW YORKERS ARE MOVING TO NEW JERSEY!!! YEA!!! she said sarcastically.

March 14, 2011

I might be living in New Jersey. Today, we went to check out the apartment and neighborhood.
After that, we came back and "Rachel" asked me if I liked the place, I said yeah, that I'll be happy wherever I lived and she was shocked and then told me she needed to eat because of stress or she'll cried, then when she got a call from her mom, she told her mom, she told her what I said and her mom said something and then she hung quickly.
I don't get it, what did I say that was wrong.
I'm not an complicated person. I don't like confrontations. I don't like fights, never even been in a fist fight in my life.
I don't get picky for anything other than food.
Would she rather I bitch like my dad does all the time or be easygoing like I am.